Some days are harder than others. This week I had one of those harder days.
I was thrust into sorrow, apprehension, and fear. Events in the life of someone I love were at the root of these feelings. Events over which I have no control, no power, and no influence. I lived in the fear and apprehension for several hours, it was excruciating. I prayed, I talked to people who love me, I prayed, I read inspirational passages, I talked some more and I prayed some more. I sincerely wanted to do nothing but cry. I did shed a few tears, but I did not sob. How do we overcome come these moments in our lives? How do we find the strength to pick ourselves up and carry on?
Our ability to do this is crucial to our own happiness. I have found, for myself, I have to live in the muck, but I don’t have to live in it any longer than I want to. I used to spend my life in the muck, that’s the truth, but that is no longer acceptable to me–anything more than a few hours are unacceptable. I love life too much and life is too short for muck.
On this day, action was the key to my rise above the muck. I was scheduled to swim, and I was determined to do it, no matter how bad I was feeling on the inside. I did what I could do for my loved one, and then I gathered up my swim gear and headed for the door. As I pulled out on to the main road, what appeared in front of me was one of the most beautiful sunsets I have ever seen. Beautiful pinks, purples and blues. I knew I was meant to see this sunset, but the only way I would have seen it, was by taking the action to get out of the muck.
At the pool I pushed my body to swim faster, I had thoughts of my problems in the back of my mind, but counting my laps and remembering the coach’s instructions were paramount. It was important that my mind was occupied with something fundamental to my happiness and for me, for this day it was working it out in the pool.
No one at the pool would have guessed what kind of day I had, unless I told him or her. By the time the workout was over, I had worked hard, I was tired, but most importantly I was better. Nothing was changed from before I stepped out my door, nothing but ME. I cannot predict what the future will bring, I can only live in this moment and hope for the best. Do what you can, then take action on something you have control over, and don’t forget to look to the glory of nature that surrounds us but that we often overlook, for the muck. You just might catch a glimpse of the most beautiful sunset you’ve ever seen.
Thanks for stopping by to read my post. I hope to see ya’s next week, for Life with Mo.